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form 4, actually me and my friend going to choose what class we like, we naughty but got think too. And actually i am joining art class, my life will change a lot if i am in art class, possibility that i will be with Shirley is very high, or maybe it is no different. Why am i saying this. Pass thing, don't want to mention la, tell only when got people ask. Haiya, if give me chance to back to pass also, i will never like her back. Back to standard 6, save more money then, anime!! Thats what i want xp.

Tears

I am the oldest in the famous, taking care of brother and sister is my job, teaching them to be good, showing them a good example of a brother. (you know what, i feel geli) The way i show my love to them is by my inner heart, example i worry about my sister, i will never say it out, i will nag, thats my way. Becoming a brother must be strong, can't always ask for help. Actually, i am not a strong person, mean those easy to get hurt, something like feeling, serious will cry but it will never happen. No one can see how soft is my heart, my friend feel sad or moody, i will absorb few percent of his sadness. This morning my boss say to that malay driver (semakin lama, kamu semakin lambat, saya tak suka kamu macam ini) mean do thing slow and late to work. Mazauki is the driver name, i hate malay like hell but i can't treat him my hate way. In game, ragnarok online, malay kid all around the screen, i never scold back then even a pukima even if they say me stupid or what, feel very shit but what can i do. I know give people say then say la but, huh. That driver quite pity, he is a father of few kid, salary not a lot, work as driver, everyday deliver things to far area.. Then he just want to rest but that boss.. Can't understand workers feeling, i can't continue my studying so i have to work, my salary now is impossible for me to do business in future. My heart will feel not well if i think about my future, it is hopeless, zetsubou!! Few post a day, not bad xD this blog a bit spoil

Despair

i don't think i will got a good future, i don't even want to imagine it. There are lot me people can become success like my grade, do you think i can do that too? I don't have experiences on everything, do i? Working in cyber already feel very despair, staying in here i feel like more despair, ya this work is great but i can't stay here!! The more i stay, the more i can't leave because this company need me, without me, a lots of thing will be abandon until the new worker come. Why i care so much, thats my way :( Same like i can't just quit the job in cyber, feel a bit not responsibility. Despair.. Don't care la, go suicide, crazy only go to hell.

Tiredness

Sleep very late last night, try to guess how sleepy am i. My favourite eye also got, those black color one. Huh, luckily i am damn sleepy last like or i will get insomnia because, some problem in heart, must solve it o. A death is just like a sleep. We die, it mean we sleep forever.. Got dream, of course no, brain not active liao ma, mana uh dream ne? I forget something that i want to post, important o.. Shit. Actually making few post a day is better then writing a long list of scroll. Today my song for share is Tobira o Akete by (Anza)

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