01-03-2009 ouch, 261day's [Raven^^,]

hello to all reader, it is march and do you all know something? yes, my working day already got 216days. i am still wasting time, i cant do anything to myself but just staying alive as long as i can. 

my parent? whats wrong with them, dont even give support and they are not hoping me to have good future, trying anything to let me stay working. i promise i will make them regret for what they do to me.

my main photo for today, i snap it this morning, attach with one anime photo that i like the most. you know what it mean when i do that? it mean i am watching your love heart, everyone have a love heart and it seperate to few type and level. for love, it got three heart colour, orange, pink and red. orange mean fresh crush, pink mean crushed and red mean very deep. i can see my heart, try guess what colour of heart that i have.. pink or red.. impossible if it is orange. red colour is a very serious colour.

i can see a lots of pink nowadays, for me, i have a very weak pink i guess, weak pink not mean that my love it weak or will lost, it is something like need more action. what i need now is [close, see, pass and stick] only me can understand what i write. making morning post really feeling stupid. 

do you think my photo is that [not shy?] the me in real life can be super shy, the way i talk can be hanging or mute. cantonese hokkien can talk very well, manderin? nicole say i can speak well and it is very good, not sure.. i want to talk with Raven^^, wonder what will she react if see my talking way x( will she close her mouth and laugh? or will sh turn back or laugh or will she just look and me and laugh like crazy? i think my talking way is okay, just can talk correct way or what. 

i cant care, i cant do, i cant change, everything control by parent, i hate them and dont know what they think, my father say yesterday, [get a new work and quit current one] know what it mean? asking me to work, what i want is study!! i almost say [chau ji b*i] [lann j*ao] [bo siao eng e lau pe] he is very useless and killing. this type of parent scare own child to study. i feel like he want me to take over the family. i can die

i am not a bad child in liu family or actually i am really [bo siao eng]  i feel like die is the most happiest and better than hurting myself. i use to make wound on myself when i am young, pinching and punching the wall. no people know this. last year i hurt my leg when i kid very hard on a steel, i am so stupid!! what for i make myself that way but i can just end it? right?

actually die can be very easy and i got few tips, i can be arrested if my blog contain this suicide tips stuff, but dont care la~ last night want to sms with Raven and go to bed, didnt think or putting my body to .. to where? let me show you the photo^^,

you know what, i feel so excited and cant wait to end it, sorry, no tips for suiciding easily here. i put my body very hear there just now, i feel like wow, great, argh, just jump off then everything will be fine or i will make all my parent down with me? nah~ i want them to feel bad and want to see thier tears without brain^^, wuahahahahaha. i can be crazy if my parent continue like this, i dont know what thier mind think, i dont how to be human. not everything is because we are grown up then can understand. so lets see how near is my dead

you know what, this high will really cool, i will feel very great in few second and feel very pain for 2 or less than 1 second^^,  my parent will kill me if my put my body out so near, i better just jump off. i can be famous in newspaper or newspaper have nothing to write to write? can my blog be famous after dead? i cant wait. my blog name suit me more after dead, it is my memorial.. lets see more closer dead photo okay? please dont scold me because of putting my body near to outside, i scare nothing^^,

will i die very ugly or cool, falling from that height 100% can die, drop by any way is also same.. i feel like the photo is summoning me.. wuahahahahahahaha dont worry, i will be there one day i guess.. i hope i can die very nicely^^, erm.. die with what style? i am imagining myself self falling.. thats feel ouch a bit but it is only a second of pain and everything can end, yay.. not thinking of reborn.. actually i quite like being me.. dont like my life.. 

is there any rich people want to accept me? i an change my surname and name to yours.. i can be your anyone and i will pay back you everything in future, what i want is a happy life, just support me.. [wa bo living meaning^^,] =_= i am so angry, wuahahahahahahaha i will leave my family and go far far from it and dont care anything, reason [e lang si har mi laupe laubu] 

LOL my hair falling, wuahahahahahahah

can see the hair on the ground? click and see^^, can be clear, found it around my computer table.. my mother sweep the floor everytime and i drop my hair everytime too? lets see how my hair turn to monk, i will add six dot on it^^,

current time 10.40am Raven sleeping, feel like want to look at her sleeping face x) help her cover her body with blanket.. brush her head and wish her sleep well and have a sleep dream. wuahahahahaha, so nice^^, then steal her glasses to play, hide it and dont let her wear^^, wuahahahahhahahahaha. ble.. she will kick me if i keep it..

shh, secret

• want to go to park with Raven in klang
• go to smk hin hua cooking society and help Raven group
• ask her to help me cut finger nail xD
• go tesco in klang with Raven
• go aeon in klang with Raven
• go to Raven house see
• er.. hold her hand tight ;p
• make her go with me with simple way
• cook with Raven
• buy her favourite good day milk
• buy her favourite aloe vera grape juice peel fresh
• go genting with her
• ;p australia
• make a lot a lot of things for Raven and with Raven
• do a lot a lot of things for Raven and with Raven
• go spa with Raven ;p want her to feel revive after spa then drink milk after spa, Raven like milk and drink milk will feel very great after spa
• make own aloe vera grape juice for Raven or with Raven
• ;p create own porridge for Raven or with Raven
• boil a soup for her
• with Raven always

who dare to challenge me to list 100 or more? do you think i can write? if take a long time but i can list a lot.. there is some simple list only. it can be countless and listless because it is everything. ble.. Elric [bo siao eng]

current time is 11.05am in the morning, hope i can make a post again that night. how is my post for today? nice? leng? sui? mei? kawaii? liang? i like today post so much, it is special and nice^^, got a lot of >> ^^, smile too.. normally i try to make post long time with [shift + enter] this way of post okay? nice?

ble~ will publish before 12pm so try my best to write more first.. Raven oh Raven, you are my xD wuakakakakakaka funny ;p not dont want to write or what.. it is very lame, lets make it modern way but can i?? lets see.. ;p dont want.. who like my post format and way!! Raven!! my post way nice? i cant make it everyday and post that way.. 

lets see my breakfast and can be say as early dinner, i can be eating nothing at lunch if i stay in home but i usually stay in home, try to give you all some photo that i am going out okay? a zai nan go out and snap photo? this is not zai nan at all lorr.. hope the weather is not too hot, i hate sun that make my eye closed, i cant see anything.. who can sponser me a super dark glasses, cool man.. 

my stupid hot salty noodle, it is very hot.. oh my god.. i dont use chopstick.. wuahahahahahaha i am still kid ma.. it got reason why, ask Raven then you know why no chopstick on there with spoon, i mean fork, wuahahahahahahahaha spoon with noodle.. ops.. you see my anime disc? it is very great anime, not yet watch and just put there to key in anime list.. i love my anime, i love Raven ;p Raven help me hu mian o..

who want to see me with glasses!! there.. Raven want to laugh? then try, wuahahahahahahahahaha, be honest

so how is my stupid head and face? wuahahahaha Raven do i look that shit? i feel like wearing it sometime but not keeing it. Raven, i will wear it when i go out with you.. want? wuahahahahaha i surely blur blur and dizzy, lets take of the glasses together.. ehihihihi

wuahahahahahahahahaha, sunglasses i got one but it is not very good, i dont even have luck and chance to wear it, everytime fail to wear and didnt wear out before.. i like sunglasses because i hate bright^^ not because of nice yo, remember yo, so now see my sunglasses look^^,

wuahahahahahahahaha sei so hai~ sorry.. checkout my friendster, facebook and bebo to see all and more yo.. 

say that i am going to make post before 12pm but i am late!! my PC turned off suddenly and want to cry!! Raven, T_T ble..

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like you so much^^,