20-02-2009 dead coming

It is february now
I am regret that i don't struggle on studying at first
But i never hope for returning to pass to change it
Never hope for returning to pass because the moment we are having now is the most perfect
Always hope i can back to pass so that
I can change a lots of things but from now on
I will never think it anymore
Thinking it mean regret and giving up
For now, the most important is study
I have send a mail to KMP asking for some advice and help
Metro prima college
It is the only hope i get for now
Waiting some email reply
I hate my parent for asking me work
I hate them for asking me not to study
I hate myself for wasting so much time
I hate everything of me
Life is not perfect, not lucky and despair
Want to have a car, want to have a house
I hope i am lucky and got talent for something but i don't
I believe everyone got its own talent
I believe i got my own talent but what talent?
It must be a useless talent of course
Things that i like, no talent on it
I am 18years old now
I don't want to waste anytime
I want fast and now
I feel despair when a new day come
Nothing change a lot in my life
Everyday and time is same
I am just like wasting my time
My parent don't even care a damn
So what, i am only a moron
Now only rush on this problem
Elric, do you know it is a bit late for now?
I don't care anything now
Must fast!!
Any advice?
Morning and early post
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