19-03-2009 hate my parent with reason

what is their thinking actually? from young, i already start hearing my parent say, if my children can study well, this is be worse.. they already start to scare i can study well from pass, i hear this until bored.. they even say this to my sister. my father will dont let my sister study more after form5, this will be true and real, i can predict this, i can know this. you all can read my sister future blog to know more. i am so sad that she have a parent like this. my parent will have a lots of excuse for continue studying. i have sample for myself now, i corpse. it is better than not studying? i hate them so much, i cant think of any reason that it is for my own good. i really cant hypnotise myself for it. i cant do anything if they are with me, they are just like something that block me. i really hope, it is for my own good. i wonder what will they answer me if i get mad and scold, is this for my own good. i surely will run out from house, or break my relationship with them, feed me enough. when i age grow older, my hate to them will not like the hate now. i am 18years old now, after this year i will be 19years old. are them a failure or i am failure? this is very not normal. parent dont want children to study more to have good future, they will have infinity reason to say study no use and just go to work. VK WONG ENTERPRISE i already so angry with this, not suppose to be working at first. how i hope that i got ability to live alone and fully get away from that parent. it is impossible. they are happy with my bad result, they feel relief with my bad result. i feel like sending them to hell. i hope someone can tell me this [Your bitterness, I will dispel] this website is quite usefull and i like it so much. it is useless but fake, how good is it if it is real. my father is taxi driver, he start driving before i born, my mother dont even need to work. for my knowing, my father salary for month is around three to five thousand. it is real and i am not lie. he meet so many people, he talk with a lots of people, surely know a lots of thing but why his thinking is so stupid? my mother read newspaper more than everyone, she should be knowing more things but why my mother thinking is so stupid? i am just like a useless kid, scolding my parent stupid, what can i say then? *tut* or what? very tired and sleepy, energy draining, feel like sick but i am not. what should i do know or what can i do now? it is nothing at all.. something like waiting myself to die. i hate my parent, i dont like to talk with them anymore.. they are so useless.


sien ka ai si.