02-04-2009 i dont know why i feel speechless

going to bath after making this blog and actually i am going to bath right after work but dont know why that i always forget about it.. promise you all and myself that i will bath right after work ;) actually it is not good that i bath so late because i will get too heaty and fall to sick if i am weak. today working is like normal and i am going to write letter to resign, thanks a lot to Shirley because she is the one that help me get the format for writing a letter to resign. actually it is not format and what i do is just copy ;p actually i want to write own essay but never mind then, i can copy, it is more easy.

i think i am not going to online after i off and make this post because i dont have mood to online ;) i am fine, just dont feel like online so i dont want to force myself. i want to change and be mature, confidence and strong. i dont want to be silly and i want to be serious on everything. i feel like a bit stupid when i think of my stupid and silly act when i chat, it is very immature.. i want to go out tonight no matter what, hopefully after bath.

from my blog, i think will be a lots of people know that i am in love with R, i really dont know why i can in love with her.. or actually i just have some feeling that just like love? the feeling that i am having now is just like a lot of things bugging me!! i feel like explode!! house, life, family, work, course, parent, sibling, love and more.. i keep it in my heart and i feel like stupid now!! i hope i can feel better so much!! this problem really making me feel so down.. i have too much problem in my mind already.. how good if i can have someone to share with, lets have some try.

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i am going to think positively and stay happy always.. i feel like wearing a mask when i say that because i cant think and be happy.. i am totally lost and suck. actually i am going to share something to all blogger today but never mind then.

i think have made a big mistake on something.. dont worry, it is okay

R, do you feel something weird happen to us recently? i feel like nothing to sms with you already.. the sms you send, the sms i reply, the sms i send, the sms you reply.. i feel like a bit different and nothing to sms already.. am i having problem? dont worry, i hope everything can be find because i am going to send you a sms and tell you what i feel and think. R.. the feeling that i am having now is so complicated, i am very confuse and dont know what to do and how.

going to end my post, just scolded my sister, so noisy, talk none stop, just like a machine, cant stop talking for one minute.. though that she is alone and play herself but she still can make noisy. no matter how i nag, it is useless, no air at all.. going to explode.. same like my brother and mother, so noisy..

current time 9.15pm end my post here and now


ELRIC HOO YIK YANG