8:35 AM
good morning, on my way to work now, write something later, the wind feel so nice when i talk to work. Write something later.
8:46 AM
in store now, only can stay awhile because i am searching things. Yesterday i already tell Raven that everythings of mine will be end in this month or next month, so let me announce that my dream and hope already been ended yesterday night. Still got few last hope but i think i should get a work thats good and i can work hard for it. Write something later.
9:16 AM
actually i got something that i want to write out so much and i scare i don't have time for it. I will wait and be patient. Do my work first.
9:42 AM
actually i am already very happy with what TARC treat me, they accept me even my result is worse and they never say i got at least a possibility. I know my result well and i don't even think that they will accept me, everythings turn quite well. Write something that i want to write so much later, no time to write now.
9:53 AM
cole asked me to follow him to TARC and actually he already went there for first time to buy the form and submit. The first time i follow him is for accompanying him to submit form and try to ask something. The minimum qualification for entering TARC is three credit and i only have two plus the credit that i have is not the credit that they want. They say it is impossible that i can enter and if i want to submit the form, it is up to my choice. Cole give me the courage and ask me to fight with the luck, i did it at last, they accepted me. So what if they accept me? I can't go. Those people that say impossible and look down on me, i will curse them. Although i am not going to study in TARC but a least i get offered before. It is already very enough and thank to cole a lots too. Write something later.
10:14 AM
yesterday i meet two new friend in msn, both of them is single and same age but they live different place. Their name is Penny and Carmen. Penny is from ipoh, she is a very good girl, she got a blog too, i hope Raven will link her and visit her blog, she is a new blogger. Carmen is from kepong if i am not wrong, it is so coincidences that she is same school with me but i don't really remember her. Both of them is a very pretty girl but too sad they don't have any boyfriend, what a waste. You will say, why don't i after them? It is because i am not good enough. Penny is too easy to believe a people because she think i am a good guy, am i a good guy? I am not sure and i don't think i am good. She don't scare that i will cheat her. Penny say there are a guy always say those blue things to her, this what i hate. Penny don't block any people so she must always read and see what the guy write. Penny, ask that guy to chat those blue things with me if he want to tell you so much about it. Carmen is quite shocking me yesterday because she suddenly requested me to be her boyfriend, of course i rejected her, i think she must be joking because she didn't even know how is my look. She like my sister a lots too, she say my sister is pretty. I chat with this two girl in same time, quite complicated with chat because both of them are like same person but luckily i got see display photo when chat. Write more things later.
10:32 AM
i don't think they will read my blog so if i write a lots of things about them also never mind. Penny got a blog in chinese but Carmen don't have, she use friendster blog if i am not wrong. They will be feeling a bit not nice if they know i meet both of them in same time for first and chat with both of them in different window. Actually i quite like them especially Carmen, not because she is pretty or anythings else. Penny is a very good girl too, i showed her my old class photo. Oh my god, i got to do my work, forget already, write something later.
10:41 AM
for me, understand each other is very important for first start. No one can reach understand someone heart because we don't even understand our self. Things like quarrelling always happen if they don't understand each other well, just like what i have write, it is impossible to know someone heart well, the important is we must know and understand it. Example, a guy say (i will never know if you don't tell me) girl will think (you don't understand me). Advise to guy, you don't know why? You don't ask why, this only will minus your mark in girl heart. What you need to do is show your affection, comfort her, care her more and do what she like and don't try to make her feel worse. I don't have any experience on it, this is just my way.
11:02 AM
i am the oldest child in this family, in future, there will be a lots of things that need me to handle and care. My parent never understand what is my thinking and i don't want to explain why. I struggle hard for this family, only the oldest male in family will understand and know what i feel. This family will be waiting me to take care in future, my sister and brother is very young only, i will need to lookout on them very few so that they don't take wrong step in future, i already start to scold them about their test and exam result, my parent don't care about it so i must do my action. I am a failure example for ignore my life and more. Scold my sister because of her test and exam, beat my brother because of his stupid lazy attitude. Be a brother is not easy because my parent is hopeless, i will need to take care them more, teach them to be good. My parent is really a worse parent, hopeless and despair, (i don't know how to hold chopstick, my pencil grabbing way, my rude attitude, and more) all by my parent. I am not that perfect and good. Time to continue my work awhile.
11:18 AM
the word SOON and SET always remind me of shirley, lunch remind me of her too. Do you think she will see this part of my blog post? She already lazy on visiting my blog so i don't care if she read what i write about her. I read all her blog post on saturday from 11pm to 3am Her blog is very nice and much of it is in english so it is easy to read and understand, i spent quite long time on reading it. Why i read? I don't know why. She is going to be 21 this year and i will be 19. Our age look far right? For me, i don't really feel that far, it is only age. Thats why reason that i don't want to call her sister. My oldest sister age is 28, cool? Cousin sister. Thats far. She take care me last time. I wonder how is her today, grown up already still don't know how to take care. I will ask her for cape no. 7 movie when i am free to borrow from her. I hope she is online later, didn't chat with her for a long time already, only receive one sms from her yesterday. Blog without readers is not bad.
*my sister say hamsap lou when i see her bath* LOL now is still never mind, i bath for her since she was baby, now she splash water to me already.
11:39 AM
this post will be publish on lunch time because it is already a very long post. Shirley, you know what? Actually you are a very good girl, a very good sister too. I hope that you can have your rest when your brother come back from national service, ask him to work hard or just go to study. Honestly i like egypt a lots more than japan, japan is just like a normal living country that full of event, festival and anime or comics. Egypt, to me, it is a country that full of interesting history, a place that is hot :p finally an emotion have been make :p Actually Shirley is the one that remind me of egypt, i already like egypt a lot when i am a small kid, don't know what those firaun those stuff, it is interesting. Okay now, stop this awhile and say about other stuff. Promise, a lots of people mistaken about this things and created a lots of misunderstanding. I promise that i wouldn't hurt you anymore, is this what i promise? Promise is made to be break, i believe that there are no one can really hold a promise well. For a guy, PROMISE this word is a very serious and not a joke things, for me, it is a things that i must not break. Don't say about this, make me stupid only. Boss go out already so i can blog. If i keep this post until 5.30 PM i think this post will be very long. Want to snap some photo, write more later.
12:28 PM
this post will be made after this, i will be home later publishing this post. I can't wait to go home. Raven.. Haha, nothing. Do you really know that i like you? Of course i still like you but it is friend type of like now. Not those deep one already. Didn't greeted you this morning because i didn't sms you, just like what you have told me, friend don't sms a lot, only once awhile in short time. My phone is getting silent, don't even need to charge. Okay then, need to go home and publish this post with photo. Haha, Shirley, i hope you are online >_<>
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