6:57 AM
good morning, i write this post in very early time because i want to post up something. R sms me just now, luckily i am not asleep or R will wake me up, i think R is angry with me but i know R is very good so she will understand me i guess. I will get up and online after writing this. Have a nice day, this is my wish to all for today.
8:35 AM
on my way to work now, i am late, tell you what i did and why i am late later. Tell you some other things later too. Need to make i long post to lower down some post. I will write some comment about R sms too. Just pray that i got time for it to make my long blog post. Okay then, reach already.
8:53 AM
i am so naughty, i need to pick and pack some mounting board now but i am writing my blog post. Suddenly pop up and think of someone. Every nick or name or things related to it, surely will think someone. Write my post later. Must do my work.
9:17 AM
write something awhile. Tell you why i am late. Just now i am playing a facebook pet game call SuperPoke! Pets. I am searching someone profile from the superpoke pets official website to add her as friend. It is crazy lots and hard to search, i find from a topic post. You will know the difficulty on how to search when you try. Much of it will give up searching it. I am wrapping some mounting board now, write something later.
10:46 AM
for now, i really don't dare to think a lots of stuff. Don't have to feel guilty, i am stupid. Actually i already let go the feeling that i am having. Fell to someone, don't think about it. There are one things that i want to write so much, it is quite weird actually, i don't know what will people think about it. Only me will understand what i write, saying myself.
at very first, i think it is fake, but it already passed so many day, i still don't feel like forgetting for fading. No sound or any news, day passed like normal, make myself exhausted every night just like drunking myself. Whats going on into me? Why is it so strong? I really don't understand why. Another week, so lets see, will my feeling fade. It is a bit stupid to be so fake, no sound or news also can maintain. I don't believe myself, i pass the day with exhausted every night.
there must be something wrong if someone understand the word that i write in quotes form format. I am not holding R anymore, i pushed it away, not let go. Any day, how are you today? This question only will be asked by people that didn't really contact with each other for a time. Example i don't ask Raven how are you because i keep in touch with her daily. Example i don't sms a lot with Kenny so he will be asking how are you everytime. If you found someone that didn't ask how are you, it mean they know how are you recently by checking your update of day. How are you? Are you fine? Actually this type of question that asked by someone to someone can observe something. This timeline post make me sick me thinking, i still want to write but i have to stop or i will think and feel [how are you and are you fine] anxious.
11:42 AM
i am just like drunking myself every night by making myself exhausted. I don't drink alcohol so i make myself exhausted. I am so stupid, it don't work at all but i am still sleeping late every night. Viewing blog its blog without any reason although i know it would change or have any update. I am so angry with myself now, i can't memorize thing well because of sleeping late, blurring. I hate myself to have this kind of feeling again, it is stupid. Snap some photo for this blog post.
11:57 AM
last time, i really fall to R, it is real and i really loved R before, maybe she think it is just like a type of fake feeling but i know myself well. Of course i should let go if she already been taken because i don't steal. Hate myself so much, why must i fall to someone? It is by what or how? Or actually there are no reason on loving someone? The feeling that i am having now must be temporarily or fake, i know it will fade one day. I don't dare to think or tell myself about it because it is a nonsense. I am so tired and sleepy, the mood that i am having is just like dreaming only. A question, what will i do if a clown chase me? (i will runaway, i will beat him) this answer will make me know how you think about me. I got clown phobia. Accidentally rubbed my eye too hard, i am too tired. I want to sleep, i need to sleep. Actually the problem that i am having now left one or two, other is really fine already, only one that bugging me. My lunch time is almost there, i am so stupid, lunch time then lunch time la. Going to publish this post. I make this post in very early time, why the post is so short? Don't care about it. I make so many post yesterday. Raven is my only friend that i trust the most, why can't i share or tell her my problem or thinking? I know she will keep it as secret right? Raven, if you read this post already, i will try not to hide anything from you and try to tell you the true and problem. To unlock my mouth to tell you my problem, you need a code when send me sms. The code is my birthday code, remember the three number? Tell me the code and i will understand and i will tell and share you. Sorry for hiding, i don't mean to hide my problem to a friend that i can trust. This post contain more than 6 kilo bytes of size so it will be very long. When can i have lunch, i am so hungry.. By the way, i need some suggestion about, if i don't have any work and i am not going to study, should i have some rest in house first or must get a work quick from now? I am going to end my post now because i write too much of things. I will continue my blog post after lunch. Thanks Raven a lot, she read my blog a lot. Now i remember what i want to write so much. Okay now, i don't know why i will feel sad or be abandon. I am type of human that stay more in house more than getting social. Everytime when i hear someone is having activities or going out, i will feel like get dump and feel sad, is it normal or i should not feel that? Going back home now. Publish this.
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