1:59 PM
i can't stop myself thinking of you, what i want is some response. You seen to be avoiding me but why? What have i done, i don't mean to offend you if i really done something take make you feel upset. Are you angry with me? I will be right back, i want to check my sent item.
2:39 PM
i think i know what have i done. I don't mind that you don't want to forgive me, what i want to tell you is sorry, not going to repeat what have i done, please don't keep it in your heart. I already felt so regret on what have i do to your friend. Actually i suppose to be joking.
2:51 PM
bahasa melayu ialah sebuah subjek yang paling senang di malaysia, adakah ini betul? Dari dulu saya sudah berfikir begitu, sebenarnya bahasa melayu senang tetapi semakin lama saya belajar, semakin susah saya berasa, sebenarnya saya sudah tak berminat dengan bahasa melayu dan mula membenci melayu. Mengapa saya berfikir begini? Saya rasa tiada orang akan percaya apa yang saya kata, cikgu melayu tidak suka mengajar budak cina dan cikgu cikgu semua memandang rendah terhadap kami. Murid melayu juga suka menghina budak cina. Sebenarnya saya dah sangat malas dengan melayu. Saya tidak berfikir sebenarnya dunia ini masih ada melayu yang betul betul baik kerana melayu yang paling saya mempercayai boleh mengkhianati saya. Saya tak bermaksud nak cakap benda yang tidak baik terhadap melayu, saya percaya dunia ini mempunyai banyak orang melayu yang baik. Saya sebenarnya pun bukan seorang yang sempurna, saya kurus dan tinggi, berhati busuk, selalu membuat orang rasa tidak baik, cuma tahu cakap, penakut dan tidak bersosial. Saya membosankan dan tidak berguna langsung, seperti sampai dengan tong. Stop saying those, i am making myself feel down. Not suppose to think that negatively, i should be positive and confidence.
3:14 PM
i miss you so much, i hope i can always be with you, hug you tight and make you feel happy. What have i say and who is it to? I am feeling weird. I am feeling stupid. Stop saying i am feeling weird or stupid! Admit it and be brave to myself. Confidence! Okay now, write something later.
3:42 PM
i am training myself to be strong, it is physical training. I want myself to be strong. I already look thin, i don't want myself to be weak. No girl will like a guy that is thin and weak. My motive to be strong is to protect you. Cole is right, we are thin but we can be strong.
3:58 PM
i can't wait to go home and online. Still got one hour and thirty minute. RL actually do you think it is possible for me to fall on her after you? Do you think the feeling that i am having to you is fake last time? NO! I am really in L with you. In L with you then in L with her? Is it possible? I can't stick to you because you have been taken, in the time i feel unhappy, there are someone that accompany me and chat with me everyday.
4:31 PM
one more hours. I love plurking so much, how i hope that my friend can join plurk. It is a type of online shout out that can be comment and chat. Karma is for some accessibility on emotion and more. Chatting on plurk quite interesting and special, it is just like giving comment type me chatting.
4:42 PM
EL be confidence to yourself! This is what i tell myself when i feel like, i can't do it. Must be confidence to myself. My phone battery is showing low status already, my phone will off automatically. If you see some broken text after publishing this post, it mean my phone is out of battery.
4:50 PM
everything will be solve when we meet, to know whether i am real just playing, just find a day that we can meet. I will be the one that going to meet you. Actually i got plan and think to meet RL last time, i want to proof that i like her not because of image but heart. She's already unavailable, so it is over. Lets make it next month if i got time.
5:07 PM
twenty minute more, time pass very slow when we are waiting it to pass. I got one every interesting question, will you choose the one you love now if your life have been restart? Will you choose back your first love? My answer is, if one day i realizes that my life have been restart and i still have the memory of it, i will choose the one that i love now. I will beg my parent to move to the area that she is living. DREAMING.
5:33 PM
i will go home and publish this post later. I need to bath right away after get home because my body will be very heaty. Sleeping late for so many night, wakes up very early everyday too. I am lucky that i am still alive, every minute of me is tired. Walking back home now, publish this later.
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