06-04-2009 cracked heart

i went out with friend just now, come back early because they are so busy with their private thing, feel like left out already because they are not telling me what they busy with, went to play snooker not more than ten minute, meeting dismiss. all their life is damn good and happy, unlike me, after this month, i will be jobless. i am so angry with my life, why so useless, why cant i be like them? my result is better than them. my parent? hopeless, hate them forever [say anything, i am a bad son] yeayeayea without them i cant blog here, so what? the more i blog, the harder i rub my eye, shit. my life is totally ruined.

my life is end
i have to give up everything
what i need to do is
see what can i do
and do what i can
or just do nothing

life that no direction or
a life that dont have any direction
it is no where that i can go
a parent that is suck
yes, i am a bad son

sien, post end