07-04-2009 baka ELRIC zetsubou

i go out with friend last night
their life now are so happy
i can see their future too, it is bright
yesterday they ask me this and that
i don't know how to answer them
what i am doing now is work
they are studying
they ask me why
i tell them
my parent don't want me to study
that's all
i cant do anything because of them
what they want is
ELRIC work
i feel so useless :'(
very useless :'(

i have chicken rice for my lunch today, i eat it and finish it very quick, done it at 1pm, chatting with Shirley in yahoo messenger. my lunch time is from 12.30pm to 1.30pm i am having much problem in my heart until i really cant take it and cried for few minute, it is really stupid that i know actually i still can cry. Shirley is too confidence with her six sense, she say she know i cried. what the hell, her six sense is fake, she is the one that make me cry, that's why she is confidence with it. although the crying is short, it is quite relief.

i hope my parent can understand
i want my parent to understand
do you all think it is possible?
i already try my best to make them understand
my time now is really short already
i already don't have much time
please