see those stupid things? actually i dont even think to have a try and until now i still get some cold water that pour from my mother, i want to talk with her anymore, thats easy, dont need to care her already. no because of anything, i already fed up with her. my father stop his nonsense already but my mother dont, she is still pouring. dont care about what i upload, what i want to do is quick and dont want to waste time already, Cole ask me to fight with the fate i am having, this is what i am going to do. i want my parent to feel regret on what they do to me, how come my salary can be two month of amount? they use on what? they are stupid, i dont even have a work that really can work long for permanent yet and they already start to say i should share my salary to family. my salary not a lot, what they tell me last time is, save your salary for continuing your further study and now they are so scare because the salary that i am having, CANT support my fees for going there and coming back. Cole is really very good already, dont have nothing to say. this morning Cole chatted with me and tell me that he is going to submit his form so he ask me want to join or follow or not. i skip work today just to go to the place and see, my boss must be very mad already.
i wake up at 7am today, thinking of sending Raven sms but type until half way, forget my phone already :( if i am not wrong, i send it late but never mind.. this morning dont have a lots of thing to do, and driver not deliver things today, and boss not around from morning. [i am trying to be strong for anything 24/7 feel like sending sms but i didnt send a lot today even when i got time on phone. sorry Raven, didnt sms you when you are having tuition today.] Cole called me at 11am something, he tell me that he is going today. i ran home at 12pm and ran to secondary school at 12pm.. he is waiting me at school.. he lie me that the time is not enough and he need to start going at 12.30pm he make me walk to school like stupid, it is under the sun and very hot. so then i reach my secondary school. not even have a rest yet then he tell me his uncle not fetching already. go home first and sit KTM. his home is around KTM area only. i rest in his house awhile before going. his mother cook maggi me curry with egg for lunch, not bad actually. after lunch, i got to KTM with Cole and his mother. sit KTM from kepong to kl centre then switch LRT to wangsa maju. it is quite far actually thoungh that it by train. reach wangsa maju already still need to sit buss to taman melati side straight to the area. [possibility is zero percent, what i do is just some acting] when i reach there.. i think no one understand my feeling, it is a negative feeling. i feel some pressure for going there and mixing them up, scare of passing by them or talk with them, you know what call (ni mei you qualification) . when i think of my parent, i will feel like leave me alone please, i dont want to care them already, they are hopeless and useless for me and to me. i like the things that Cole say, let me change the mean and make it is quotes *FIGHT FOR THE FATE, TRY YOUR LUCK* i know the true so what i care? i cant just cry like yesterday because of my weakness, say of crying, the key that lock my tears from flowing already unlocked so you know what it mean. after going there, i come back home using opposite way to kepong, from wangsa maju to kl centre with LRT, from kl centre to kepong by KTM. after coming back to kepong, i rest awhile in Cole house, he show me a lots of thing. i still cant feel any best of vista.. maybe i will change next time. his driving skill is pro!! i mean in game. after some rest in his house, i feel like going back home already because the sky is DARK and it is about to rain. come back home only, mute, diam, they ask what, i ignore what. time not enough already and i want to fast, like what i say [possibility is zero percent, what i do is just some acting] not even really want to try actually. i will offline after this or i just leave my computer on.
Love is a sweet breeze that tickles your feelings when you have closely shut your heart. Love is an unexpected guest that doesn't even knock on the door and just invades your soul witout asking permission.
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