13-05-2009 smiling with sadness and tears

i might look normal and nothing in my appearance, normal in texting, my friend or parent will never know, i cant breath, i can smile, i can laugh, i can talk, i can joke, i can act, i can be nothing. i can don't care, i can just do nothing. everyday, every night, every moment every minute, what am i doing now? whats my direction of life, what is my target? i am lost, i am inside a dark room, i cant run far, i don't have anywhere to go, no matter how loud i scream, no respond. i want to do it alone, i don't want any help, can i? feeling heavy, is this what we call stress or pressure? i am relaxing in home, do you think i am so relaxing?

enough~

my sister wear glasses, look mature, grown up and lenglui, cool?

lalala, enough post can write