22-05-2009 girl

Current time 12:50 AM just come back from drinking tea with friends. Just asked them about genting trips date and time, they can't really confirm which day because the schedule they got is a bit complicated. Waiting a free coffee in genting. Just now when i arrived, Mark is on the phone with her girlfriend. Mark is the one that i know the most longest from standard five, i know him very well but the most complicated things about him is i need to believe every word from him.. Something things he say will make people feel like he is lying but actually he don't lie, we will know if he joke, he is a very honest guy. When he is on phone with her girlfriend, try guess what is my reaction with Thomas.. We are shivering with those word that mark say and of course it is not weird to us, we are chillies mean hot, he is candy, you know what it mean, sweet, LOL. Thomas don't seen to be accepting those as sweet, he say Mark girlfriend is damn annoying. For me, it is okay, i feel like asking Thomas borrow his phone, i want to call a girl and prank her on phone, she will never know it is me because the image that i have, in her eye i am a coward. I don't mind about that, promise you guys that i will prank her on phone. Wonder will it work or not, i will never reveal myself that i am the guy that prank her till i really need to reveal then only i will say. Today my mood is very good, i talks a lot to them because they don't have anything to say, slowly intro some pass story and cars. Thomas is quite lonely, i can be by his eye, only games that accompany him, luckily he have money and a group of gang that always active or he will feel very sorrow. Actually i am planning of offline early and sleep early, at last i am still sleeping at this late time, writing blog on phone and waiting to publish. The world is very reality, let me ask you a question "you and your friend" one of you both need to die, i am wondering, who of you two will stay. If me, i will choose myself to be dead, will my friend say "no, let me die" true is, they will not say that. This is a made out question, everyone can make a lies on it, the true of human only will be reveal only when it happen. A car accident, the car is going to explode and your friend stuck inside, if you can't pull it out, you will die, if you runaway, you will be safe. I am dumb, i will try my best to safe my friend. I am stupid, in real life, it is not worth for that. Whatever. People always human that is K, their heart is always fragile, maybe it is true. You will always hope for someone happiness but what about our self? Every unwellness swallon by own, feel by own. Have you all try, biting your teeth tight and hold yourself from crying? This is emptiness. There are something that i want to blog out but don't know why i can't. I am not scare because she will read or anything, just the feeling is stucking quite hard and difficult to explain and blog out, there are too much and so suffering. I am not expecting her to read this part. You know i like you, you can act nothing, i can act silent, i don't hope for any answer, i don't wish for anything, i just what a test of exam to myself. And lastly try not to act don't know. Thats all. My friend is asking me to go to secondary school carnival, of course i will agree to go with him, although that i like older girl but actually i quite like student, after all, i am single. Silly me, young girl don't seen to be attractive to me but older girl that have a young heart is quite cute and attractive. Too sad that i don't have much chances of meeting older girl, only one. Wait i minute, i start to like today blog.. Nice! I can comment something about girl that i like, a lots more. Darn, i am a bit tired right now.. There are someone that i want to mention, C, she is a very cute young girl, too sad that she is younger that me one years or i will after her. Actually we have chance to be together i guess, she asked me out to a date too.. C is a very mini short cute pretty girl, eye very round and big too, can count as type that i like. Last time i always think, if we like someone, we will don't care anything or how it look. Girl that i like, long straight hair, thin and small, shorter than me, have a very sweet smile, eye must big and round, talkative, very active and smart, the most important is kind and ting hua, don't make me worry about her. Whats more, must always report me when there are something happen to her, tell me each time when she is happy, sad or moody. Tell me her daily story everyday. This is type of girl that i like. No girl that is perfect in this world, girl that i like doesn't match with my taste, oh well, never mind, what to do if i already fall on her, accept the fate. Just now my friend fetched me back, they suddenly say they heard that i have girlfriend already, my reaction is like shit, they found it already but the true is i don't even have one. My friend is very stupid, they will advise me to beware of fat girl that will rape me when i am walking to home, on staircase. I forget my blog birthday and when it made, what i know is, it is on may. Poor blog. Shirley thinks that i am type that very easy to believe people, sorry, i am not, i always suspect and think that my friend is lying, i always suspect everyone is lying, i don't trust myself, i don't trust anyone, do you noticed that i always ask a word, "sure?" I am sick again, my heart will beat when i think of you, my face will red when i look at your photo, i will feel that you are there when we are texting. This is a very long post, whoever that readed this can make a wish to me and i will grant it. A wish that i can do it of course, i will do anything. This is a promise to this post reader. Okay then, time to sleep, current time is 2:15 AM good night and sweet dream. Meadow, oyasumi .