just now i went to jusco, actually i am think of buying a happy card from jusco or change my call plan to postpaid, i don't like to make call with worrying my calling credit. i feel so down after i forget this important things. actually today my mood is a bit not good, i feel a bit like crying too. this morning carrien show me some photo of her, she look very mature, really, i am not lying. i will love her no matter how she look like i dont mine, i feel like she want to lie me but i know, she will be honest with me, i will believe every word she tell me. honestly i cant accept what have she show me today, i dont mind how she look. i feel like she dont want to let me see or know how is her look till the day we meet. i know, at last she still let me see how is she look like but i really feel a bit dont like and uncomfortable. i will be crying if everyone is on bed now. carrien, i love you. i feel so unhappy and i dont know how to say or mean it. i am sorry. i dont mind how you look but i mine that you show me so late and didnt think of showing me before. i just feel a bit uncomfortable with this.
my parent, yesterday say okay, can fetch me to carrien house, now my parent say, dont go and tell carrien now. i dont want and i want to go, i want to meet carrien. i am feeling so down about this, my parent never support me for everything that i have choosen, it is anything. they tell me a lots of reality stuff too, it is ancient story of love. my parent say i will be abandon and she would like me. my parent say what else if she dont look as same as photo. my parent tell me a lot of stuff and i didnt say anything and mute, i will argue with them if i say something. i am not a good guy, i hate my parent, i dislike my parent, i quarrel with them because i dont like them. they disagree me to go now, i will try my best to meet you, i know i am dumb, i know i am inexperience plus this is my first time on date and meet parent too, i will be very nervous, after all i am still a 18years old kid<
you have offend me, i know you dont mean it, i hope it wouldn't happen anymore, i am really feeling sad about this
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